I have been doing some soul searching and realize that I have a higher potential than what I am accomplishing right now. I have been inspired and directed to start a blog about the journey I am taking to understand myself better and the potential the Lord wants me to accomplish.
First and for most, for the past 7 years I have had the attitude that 'Why lose weight'. I have taken classes to lose weight only to gain it back and more. I realize that this is a feeling of depression and discouragement and miss direction on my thought process. How could a child of God not value herself such as I have? How can I truly love another when I am so judgmental and hard on myself? How could I get so low that I have hit rock bottom? And that is where I am at!
I have had a terrible cold and been pushing myself to keep up with life. It is Sunday morning and I am taking time to examine myself both physically and spiritually. I am hoping that blogging I can find the sweet spirit and constant companionship of the Holy Ghost and have a love of living again. I do have a firm and abiding testimony of Jesus Christ and grateful that He is my Savior and Redeemer. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has been a blessing in my life and my family lives and it is true. I spirit has been witnessed this to me. I love serving others and will put myself on hold to make sure others are taken care of. I think it is time to take care of myself and I take care of others. What does that mean? How can that happen? I have several goals in my life are left to be accomplished. The greatest experience was marrying my love, Clark. He has been my strength and support through the years and I have been blessed. I will be grateful to my Heavenly Father for this good man who has been a great husband, father, and now grandfather, brother and son.
What are my goals and how can I reach them? How am I doing on the covenant path?
I am moving forward on the covenant path by daily prayers, scripture reading with Clark at night in the B of M, listening to conference talks and trying to minister and working on the farm. When I write it out is seems I am doing better than I realize on the Covenant Path. What lack I yet? The church is asking the youth to set goals in these four areas: Spiritual, Physical, Intellectual and Social. I will piggyback on these four goals for myself.
Spiritual:
- Pray more intently and listen to the impressions I get and follow through and record those impressions.
- Read scriptures on my own. (6 am in the morning) Record and document what I learn that day.
Physical:
- Exercise 5 days a week. 7:15 am Document my exercise and level I obtained.
- Keep a log of food intake.
- Don't eat sugar or flour and log how I am feeling.
Intellectual:
- Play piano daily for 15 minutes or longer.
- Learn something new each day and share it.
- Long goal: graduate from college - How am I going to accomplish this goal?
Social:
- Call family and friends more often and stay connected even through text, emails, and phone calls and face time.
- Get to know people in the ward by inviting them over for dinner or FHE or dessert.
- Willingness to open up to others by making the effort to say hello and learn others names.
I stayed in bed all day. No Church! No fun with family that came for dinner! I hated being sick but I also did not like the idea of giving the cold to others. I did not follow the goal of staying away from sugar. I did have a small bowl of homemade ice cream and a cookie and a philly sandwich with a roll. Tomorrow will be another day and I will continue to follow the plan that I have set out for myself.
